haihz... while watching 8tv where Michael's live in Bucharest... my tears roll down... is really funny and weird that i feel this way... Michael really influence alot of us.. and his death really put a big impact in our life... like many people...part of my soul seems like goes with him... really i must say this: he is an ammmmmmmmmmmmaaazing singer, dancer... he's one of a kind... he's the king he IS the BEST....
his voice touched many people WORLDWIDE his lyrics is so true.... his talent Inspired by many people... he has united the nation...
his contribution to the world is unlimited...
i think alot of us is missing him so badly from all over the counties...
is heartbreaking and the biggest nightmare to us...
Oh LORD..please give me strength and let our prayers be with him Lord..AMEN
MY BEST MOMENT : when i was really small...i watched video clip from 'laser disc' with my cousin in her house...really we're so crazy about it...we watch the live...we watch with awe.... after that we kept watching MJ disc after disc...all his video clips is like a movie for us...also, i learn hw to immitate his finger, his way of pointing...wow those were the days....
MICHAEL JACKSON U'RE MY IDOL ALWAYS AND FOREVER... he's true idol seriously...he's the idol for all ages... dont believe? watch his live
Neednt i say much... He's one of my idol... i admire his songs and talent bt nt his crime... nevertheless it is a loss in the entertainment industry... so many many singer artist put him as an idol and form who they r today.. reading their twitter, seems that he really did a great job in putting impact on the music industry.. even dancer....
it seems that there were no 100% confirmation by CNN and some other channel... WE hope it isnt true as he's supposed to do his final concert.. how devastating for the fans to know they dont get to c his LAST concert?
my prayer is with him... listening to all songs played in radio really makes me think of my childhood... i guess noone will ever deserve the title KING OF POP aside of him...
On June 4th, i went to my BFF's birthday party held at her house... I really enjoyed and happy to see my friends again after... well...since we graduate from high school?!?! So we have tons and tons of gossip and chit-chatting till even when everyone has left, we still chatting.. talking most about our past and the happy moment we had.. reminiscing our school life.. it seems soooooo long ago... really miss those days... also, i get to meet Jo's friend in uni... they're so fun and nice... I would say Thank you Jo for making this party... if not, i would be still so hooked up with cheer practice... but i thank God that i did not missed celebrating with you due to practice... i thank God for i take a break out of my hectic cheer life... and i thank God that i still put my friends and family at priority... if not i really don't know when r we gonna meet up again with the aiwee as well... haha... hopefully we'll c each other real soon and... with lixin as well (=
*The gorgeous birthday girl in the middle & us (=*
sigh lately i've been looking at my life as being very gloomy... how can i be back to optimistic if keeps on like that? is torturing... even a crave for wedges enough to make my life gloomy... when i tot of next month... i really feel scared, worried and fear.. been using money lately... there were just lil income but more cashflow... wonder how am i gonna survive... the pressure i have towards the cheer competition is soo big just like the time im anticipating my exam results... i fear...i have so much commitment that i need to make and done... i really need to get champion... lately everything seems so wrong..what i can do all balls down to failure... haihz...really wanna cry after all the hard work... just like my exams again... and and and... there's so many "special" day coming up... i feel even more tense... i want to feel less of "urgh" and stop getting more n more "urgh" from people... i dont wanna know that...ah this is soooooo bullshit i dotn know what im trying to say... im getting insane... ahhh! i realized it all linked together...how can this be happening to me? rite now what im sure about is noone know how i feel... no1 can stand at my place and feel it... and i dont know how to tell you how i feel.. it just...i just want just 1 thing...comfort and calm... but i dont know how, where and what to gain that...
it's been reallly long that i din post anything up in my blog... my blog almost died...or maybe dying i dont know...
sigh rite now there are so many things pondering me... just so many... it really makes me feel distress... i hope i will receive some breakthrough soon... knowing that i've not been doing what im supposed to do, really upset me... things seems to turn out not the way i wanted... whenever i look at the outcome i feel like banging my head against the wall... i feel like im not like who i am before... someone told me if i did not fall i will never knew how to rise up... i guess this is how it should be said...i'm not sure... what i know is i've fallen... sigh... everyday i have to put on a smile on my face... accepting the fact but is so hard... yet i need to push myself and force myself to think that way... my heart is screaming and mourning... is tormented...and i hate it... i admit that im useless now...i surrendered eventhough time is not up... yet what do i get in return? all i can do is wait and forget and let days goes by... hoping someday my patient will be fruitful..... life is just so challenging and ever changing i feel....
*thanks to my sister for this wonderful picture taken this yr CNY*
Dear Lassie, funny as it is, grandpa called you Nancy.. after 2 days passed, i still cry for u.. im so useless... i hope i can spend a lil more time with u... it seems that i know you'll be leaving us soon... i try to take so much picture of you... i deny that this day will come... but well, i pray really hard for u... and i hope now you're safe and you're happy to be in God's hand... I'm here to thank you for being so loyal and giving us abundant love especially to my grandfather. We owned u since i'm just kindergarten... just imagine how time flies... u see me grow till im now almost 21 years old.. to realise that i wont be seeing u anymore in Puchong, really hard... cant hear your barking...is really hard.................... it's even harder to see u the last time when you're no longer moving in the hospital.. i feel like hugging u so tightlyyyyy but u seems fragile...
but im happy that i can still see u... for the last time...
i know this case has been a while now, hence it still haunting me....
Referring to the title above, i'm sure you all know about the DBKL case about how they treat the animals in a VERY inhuman and EXTREMELY cruel way...
if you are not aware of this...SHAME ON YOU!
yes i mean it...
i love animals alooooooooot im sure most of u all know... and thus, i'm sure all animal lovers will be emotionally disturbed by this issue... watching the clips of how DBKL treated the dogs, part of my heart seriously ripped off... i cursed them, deep down in my heart i want them to pay for what they've done... however, part of my heart im contented... content because i realised there are people out there who really concerned about this issue... FINALLY for over the yearsss....since SHEENA case.. finally i see lotsa poeple who protest against animal cruelty...
today...which reminds me of so many things that i've seen and heard... it makes me feel so useless... i wish desperately to have so much money... that i could use my money to save as many animals as i can...
for me, life is equal not just to human but also animals and everything that have life... how can such human kill the animals alive with their eyes wide open? where is their heart? where's their morality? where's their feelings? Do they deserve to be called human then?
For those who havent seen this, i want you all to see this videoclip... what you all think? do you all just concerned about recession, and stupid Malaysian politicians issue which is forever in denial? or when u're almost dying, do u just care about urself and just forgetting your pets that once you loved so much... please im not saying that animals is everything for you... for me it is... however, if you r one who do not like animals.. dont touch it, dont even dare to wanna know about them or get close to them.. i rather you thinking them as invisible then to torture them...
my grandfather used to taking care of stray dogs, giving them food and shelter. my 2nd sis had save 4 puppies who have no homes... i help her to find owners to keep them... finally, we were so happy that all puppies finally have a home... it's really hard work.. yet the happiness can never described... whenever we see dogs straying around in my area, we try our best to supply food and water to them... it's been so long that we did nt did this... i feel so useless once again... i wanna save them so badly.. i wanna keep every stray animals i see... but where do i find lands for them? i wish im a billionaire... i could supply sooooooo much money for the animal shelter... buildign more and more branch of shelter... in a hope that people can adopt them... stopping those animal pounds and dog mills...
but unfortunately, i am nt rich...it is the least i can do to save them... even my own fmaily have financial crisis... hw can i save them when i cant save myself... im realy hope to see people who has money., who do not know what to do with their money, besides buying branded stuff, to spend 1/4 of it or using their status to help stop animal cruelty... do something....
on the other hand, i'm very sad to be a Malaysians not just because of such things happened but everything from politics, racism, and everything... now is the time where people see malaysia as nothing but stupid...when people things about ways to solve the economy, what did malaysia do to revive it? spending money into something that give no benefit to the country... eating up our money and give us lame excuses protectign their fame and status.... even if had enough still claiming for more.... enough of asking la and start using ur brain to help our world to be a better place...
hey guys and girls (who happened to stumble here), so sorry that i've abandoned my blog for sometimes... it's been really really busy year for me... lotsa work to do and my classes are like a bitch... instead fo ppl whining working 9 to 5, think about nowadays having to study like me from 9 to 6! plus the jam i have to go through...*feel like owning a helicopter or driver* sigh it's pathetic...
anyway, there's nothing much to say... seriously! my life is utterly boring. eat, sleep, cheer, study and him... these 5 activities are not enough to do within 24 hours... i need more time!
funny thing happened to me yesterday... i found out i have very low blood pressure..*wth* so basically now i have to rest and drink lotsa water and my grandma is the happiest as she can make lotsa herbal drinks for moi...
to cut thing short:-
-lixin where r u? -exam's scary...*i've no confident this time )= * -me want holiday so desperately -am going to hong kong during Nov -im currently working on my own blogshop to earn some cash to survive -i need clear my debt -am trying hard to pray very hard -missing all my frenz -joaquim! do let me know how r u k... -c3 coming up *speechless*
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