bz month

i've been having practice for my upcoming performance in cineleisure on our charm cheerleading championship competition 2008 (c3) held in cineleisure on 23rd MARCH!! YEP, it is very soon! my team will be performing for HEROES (u noe the heroes season 2 that show on STAR WORLD) - our big sponsor for our C3...i mentioned "my team" because i'll be captain-ing this team that is quite new in CHARM...so ive been really stress coz i have not being a captain before...and ive been giving this opportunity to be captain for our upcoming competition in SOuth City Plaza..so apparenlty i have 2 routine to do and to set for my members for positioning and so on in merely a very short time...luckily i got 2 co-captain which is steph n mag to helped me out...or else i'll be so dead...and luckily aso i have a team meber that will listen to me and really put itno their mind when i do prep talk...i really appreciate their effort and their support towards me leading them because really thought im causing them lotsa trouble as im nt good at conveying info to them...but they really support me alot and i THANK them for their co-operation...n thats y i even more stress coz i couldnt giev up on them n i wanna bring them the victory...i hope they could show that although in just a short time, they can be as efficient as the seniors... i dont realy hope that CHARM will b divide into japan team or SCP team int he future coz it seems like is not united....
Feww weeks back, i may not think of certain thing....but now i realised that ive been thinking alot more mature...it doesnt matter how people say bout me, i will just do what i think is right for them to do n take in what is good for my team...always people jsut see the surface of soemthing but not whats goign on behind the surface...so is better for us human to think bout ur own ratehr than taking the time to analyse others n saying things that will actually make ppl uneasy without u realising it...coz u never think of what u might have to say....

well i rant alot but this is reality....indirectly it just happened at anywhere anytime...just observe and u'll know....

i'm tired and i definitely need someone to giev me strength to move on...