kcuf

coming back home is just like going in to a place where i dont belong..
how safe can ur home b sometimes?
how peaceful can it b someitmes?
i came home feeling free-just happened to b so glee-doing the same old routine-then there-goes an sms for me-good news as i thought-but is was not-a tiny lil problem like this-just making me so pissed-i wonder-i ponder-i tried to think wiser-but situation just so intense-not one and not twice-is often to be precised-vision of family-no longer can be seen vividly-how long must i keep moving?-how long must this keep going?-i keep it all alone-that i think i'm just ego-not wanting to let anyone know-for i claimed is ashamed to have it know-finally it all ended-like as usual-then i calm myself down-trying to unload my tension-finally ime has come-once again i never expected it-it all just came down-with my own hand-it all just sink in like never end-i regretted-but just not settled-so happened it was terrible-i wanted it all to dispersed-somehow it failed-i failed-yet again i feel so nonsensical-again i feel hopeless-again i feel like it souldnt have to be this way-i wish i could stray-and this is wat i am doing-to let it all be liek a stream-keep flowing-away and away.....